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Sunday Morning Reflections
Have any of you ever sat down, and
Spent quality time with drug addicts?
Have you witnessed the turmoil,
The struggle
The pain
They go through in their life?
Have you seen the vicious cycle
As they come to grips with the fact
That they have a problem,
But just can’t seem to find a way to break free
Of their addiction?
Have you ever been around a drug user
Who’s overcome their addiction?
They count their life in days of sobriety
They constantly look over their shoulder
Hoping nothing will send them back to that dark place again
They pray for the strength to stay clean,
Knowing the difficulty of life
May yet again become too much for them to handle
I’ll tell you it’s painful to watch
Maybe their habit started off as recreational and fun
Maybe it was pain medicine
Maybe it was an escape from
The post traumatic nightmares of a trying life,
Or maybe
There were psychological factors involved
However it started
By the time the drugs dug their hooks in
Their addiction was no longer recreational in nature
They were no longer users going on a joy ride
They were humans,
Struggling to cope,
Praying to be free,
Beaten by life,
Who had adapted a destructive coping mechanism
I speak this,
Because we continue to paint inaccurate pictures of drug abuse
In our actions,
In our words we show our arrogance for life
Our ignorance of our own human frailties,
We overestimate our own strength;
We don’t use drugs,
So we think we’re better than them
Winehouse
Whitney
Better than the millions of lost souls who’ve lost their way
Who have fallen from the pedestal that humans built
Our assessment of the situation
Reaps of stupidity
As we say things like
It’s unfortunate that her lifestyle led to this;
Time and time again
We fail to understand
We are all sinners,
We all have vices that lead us to dark places,
We all have secrets we pray never see the light of day,
All of our lives will lead to this point someday
Where we will stand before God
At the gates of heaven
Stripped of our earthly titles and accomplishments
Bereft of our prestige
Naked
Judged solely on the merits of our humanity,
When it’s all said and done,
Death
Is the only guarantee we have in life
Whitney,
I have never walked in your shoes,
I don’t know what it’s like to be placed on a pedestal
And then targeted
By the same people who once admired you
To be adored
And then have humanity turn their back on you
Because you’ve found it impossible to live up to the image
We’ve created,
Whitney,
I don’t know what it’s like
To have every moment of your life
Good or bad
Broadcast
Analyzed
Discussed by raptors
Publicly raping your character
In front of your child
While you were still alive
Even now, we send our blessings
Half heatedly
Whitney,
I don’t know what it’s like
To be asked to cope with
The insatiable expectations that we place
On our brightest stars,
Or the pain you’ve had to endure
But I do pray
That you’ve finally found the peace you deserve
And that God forgives us
Once again we have failed to embrace one of his angels
That he gave to us
For the purpose of lifting our souls
Again, we have proven to be unworthy…
I Understand You Now
The first time
I was too young to understand
The second
I was too bitter to appreciate your beauty
The third
I had built a wall to protect my heart from you
By the fourth
I was convinced you were a thief
Taking things that didn’t belong to you
Selfishly stealing joy from happy people
For no apparent reason
You were
A heartless bastard
Over time
I became numb to your appearances
Unmoved when you reached your hands
From your world into mine
Unafraid of your power
I shifted my focus
From worry and despair
To the resolute action of preparation
I, would not be an easy catch
Bring it Muthafucka
I’m here!!!!
Your visits became more frequent
Each touch
Closer to my heart than the last
Each random invasion into my world
Left me
More emotionally drained than the previous one
Until finally
I became cold
And indifferent to your cries for attention
Matter of fact
To the results of your actions
It is what it is
I would not cry a single tear for you anymore
I believed in my heart
Your actions
Were nothing more than a personal vendetta
To break me down
To beat me until I quit
Until I
Became submissive to your will
You were jealous of my spirit
Why else would you keep
Taking my loved ones from me?
My grandmother,
Lying in excruciating pain
In a hospital bed
Surrounded by praying family
Fighting against
The final stages of a pancreatic cancer
That we all hoped she would overcome,
In her eyes
You could see
She had already been overcome
“I’m ready to go home” she said
“I’m tired”
It was the first time
I saw you clearly
Death,
I think I understand you now
You come in Peace
I thank you
For granting peace to the people I love
Through your actions
You have given the ones who stayed behind
A greater appreciation of life’s beauty
You have brought us closer to one another
Because of you
We no longer take life for granted
We no longer assume we have forever
To achieve our goals
We no longer believe
We have tomorrow to make things right
Death,
By constantly reminding us
Of our mortality
Of our frailty
You have freed us from our arrogance
You have forced us
To understand the meaning of “Before It’s Too Late”
and how important it is to Love
Right now
Thank you
A Love Story (10 Years in the Making)
As I reflect on what’s been over 10 years of marriage to my beautiful wife, I realized how many changes you can go through in 10 years of life. To put it in perspective I wrote a poem/short story a few months ago that I shared over the course of 10 days. The pieces are personal and the entire story is included in the anthology I’m working on… of course it’s copyrighted…
A Love Story – Part I: February 18, 2010
At the alter
tears roll down
cheeks saturated with
love’s promise
“..for better or for worse..”
Hands held sincerely
as they intensely stare into
each others’ eyes
“..for richer or poorer..”
Full of hope
for tomorrow
American romantics still
believe in the idea
of love
“..in sickness and in health..”
and soul mates
and eternity
God brought them together
in holy matrimony
love binds them to eternity
“I do”
Would the love be enough?

