You are a heavenly soul with a beautiful heart that beats to the rhythm of love. You are an angel guiding our lost souls through the dark forest of life. Don’t let the ugliness of this world take away your light. We are lost without you.
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How Could It Be?
Do you know what sucks?
What sucks is spending your whole life
chasing that elusive thing you believe
will make you happy
That relationship
the acceptance letter
that scholarship
the degree
that job
the house
that marriage
the steps on the ladder
and those kids,
All perfectly laid out
right in front of you
each forward move
promising to make you happier than
the place you were previously at
Each new accomplishment
guaranteeing a greater level of joy
than the last thing you did
You pursue,
eyes closed and focused;
mouth open and charging;
eyes straight ahead reaching
for your prey – err your dream
So close!!
A tweak here,
a change there and you’ll have it
that elusive thing called happiness
Almost catching your dream
spawns new hope,
making you believe
that you’re on the cusp of reaching
all that you’ve worked your whole life for…
And then “IT” happens
you finally catch your dream
you’re standing on the plateau
of your life’s work
all that you have fought against
has been defeated
all that you have fought for
is in your grasp as you stand
basking in the glow of your accomplishment
The only problem is
you feel empty inside
confused, because you’ve done it all
and still lack that feeling of
Happiness
How could it be?
I Understand You Now
The first time
I was too young to understand
The second
I was too bitter to appreciate your beauty
The third
I had built a wall to protect my heart from you
By the fourth
I was convinced you were a thief
Taking things that didn’t belong to you
Selfishly stealing joy from happy people
For no apparent reason
You were
A heartless bastard
Over time
I became numb to your appearances
Unmoved when you reached your hands
From your world into mine
Unafraid of your power
I shifted my focus
From worry and despair
To the resolute action of preparation
I, would not be an easy catch
Bring it Muthafucka
I’m here!!!!
Your visits became more frequent
Each touch
Closer to my heart than the last
Each random invasion into my world
Left me
More emotionally drained than the previous one
Until finally
I became cold
And indifferent to your cries for attention
Matter of fact
To the results of your actions
It is what it is
I would not cry a single tear for you anymore
I believed in my heart
Your actions
Were nothing more than a personal vendetta
To break me down
To beat me until I quit
Until I
Became submissive to your will
You were jealous of my spirit
Why else would you keep
Taking my loved ones from me?
My grandmother,
Lying in excruciating pain
In a hospital bed
Surrounded by praying family
Fighting against
The final stages of a pancreatic cancer
That we all hoped she would overcome,
In her eyes
You could see
She had already been overcome
“I’m ready to go home” she said
“I’m tired”
It was the first time
I saw you clearly
Death,
I think I understand you now
You come in Peace
I thank you
For granting peace to the people I love
Through your actions
You have given the ones who stayed behind
A greater appreciation of life’s beauty
You have brought us closer to one another
Because of you
We no longer take life for granted
We no longer assume we have forever
To achieve our goals
We no longer believe
We have tomorrow to make things right
Death,
By constantly reminding us
Of our mortality
Of our frailty
You have freed us from our arrogance
You have forced us
To understand the meaning of “Before It’s Too Late”
and how important it is to Love
Right now
Thank you
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